My life.♥

2010-05-31T21:38:00.001+08:00

I have bailed on my blogger now. Anything, cari kat tumblr kay sayangs.

www.syahirahsalji.tumblr.com

2010-05-29T23:20:00.002+08:00

記憶．I really really really miss you.

2010-05-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

Hello again, readers. I am here again, trying to squeeze in things to write here. One of the thing that is bothering me now, apart from Mother Tongue, is myself. I can't keep on lying to myself. Saying everything will be alright, when it is clearly not. I have to do something. But yet, I am not moving anywhere from where I stand now. God, wheres my strength? The strength that I have gained through experiences, and strength from overcoming ultra obstacles. Wheres that strong lady I used to be? :(
Give me the strength and hope. Amin.

Dont stop reading.

2010-05-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

Hello humans. I have not been updating my little cyber diary here because my first O level paper is in less than a weeks time. What brought me here this second is because I thought of sharing a piece of what happened ever since my last post.
There is so much to share but so little time. So, I am just going to summarize whatever that is in my mind now. Sec4exp in my school is having Mother Tongue intensive for the past few days and will be continuing this way until the actual day of the paper itself. At first I thought it will suck big time, really. Like really really suckish. But it turns out to be fine to me. At a certain point, it may bores the hell out of me but with Zaqeer around, nothing like that happens. OH IT DID, WHEN ZAQEER WENT SERIOUS WITH THE LESSON FOR A SHORT WHILE. Hahaha. What other things I have to say? Oh, my silly friend, dont think too much. Youre not sick. Maybe you are at times. Or maybe most of the times. Sick in the head and come out with the silliest thing to make me laugh that is. Okay fine, no. Youre not sick in the head as well. But really, dont think that way kay love. Life has been fine for me as well. I should be happy that until now I think I can cope Mother Tongue pretty fine. Personal life has been sucha bore, I swear. Love life? Nah. Closefriends. Ghetto Clique. And girlfriends. That is pretty much all that I need. ♥

Change

2010-05-20T21:23:00.001+08:00

Past. (March 2009)

Honestly, this is me if you cant differentiate. HAHA. Pardon my face. And my short unkempt hair. So that is it. The biggest change! My hair. This picture is taken a year back. Around March or something, I couldnt remember. So anyways, today's topic will be the biggest change you had. And as for me, it will be my hair length. Yeay. And since Uncle left his camera here, I could snap some pictures of myself and my current hair length now! My long and still unkempt hair. Haha. I liked it. So, enjoy y'all! I tag Anna into this. You go, girl.

Present. (20th May 2010)

Hanya untukmu Lela. ♥ (do I sound desperate enough? HAHA)

2010-05-20T19:30:00.000+08:00

Okay listen, lady. I gave you a leeway to say I am fat but who the heck are you to argue with Eyfa when she calls me cute? I win the vote. So, why are you so affected? Oh, you want the praise too? Haha. But takpe kay sayang, one day mesti ade orang cakap you cute. ;) *batting eyelids* Haha, desperate enough tak? Desperate for Zulhilmi what ever for? Lady, desperate? Confirm? Haha. Kalau aku dapat prove aku tak desperate, amacam? Sial la, kalau aku desperate kan Lela, aku tak teragu ragu sia nak naik tangge ngan Zulhilmi. But no, I did not. So anyways, whatever that stars are meant to be, kau fikir la ape kau nak kay? Aku bitch ke, slut or whatever you think it is. Keep it that way kay. Da la kental. Nak tules name pun susah. And since youve criticise me enough, lets make it fair. Ive got my parts too then.
Youre one dumb sibeh kia too now, arent you. *kening naek naek. Nak step tules theory. But guess what, you FAILED at it. Try harder next time. Or better off, try to write some real theories instead. Jgn buat theory sendiri kay. Memandai jek kau ni eh sayang. HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA. :D
Bye dumbdumb bitch.

Fuck you, you hoe. I dont want you back.

2010-05-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry to any readers(if there is) for my missing in action moment on blogger. Firstly, there is no new pictures to post as head of my blog post and as all can see, I am using my old picture. Cb. Secondly, I have got nothing to write about. Maybe there is but I just dont know where to start. Lastly, I will be sitting for Mother Tongue paper at the end of this month, which sucks big time and I have got intensive lessons. Double cb.
So since I am already here, I am going to share with you what I attained for Mother Tongue for SA1. Overall, I managed to get myself 66marks(B4 in terms of grade). And for those that doesnt know this, I am telling you that my Malay language is pretty bad. I used to have 50marks, around there? So getting a B4 is awesome enough for me. As for other subjects, I have not pretty much touch on anything yet. Speaking of which, art is making life dreadful. I havent progress anything on art. And that is such a major disappointment cause my attitude doesnt match with the aim i targeted for art.

STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP.
I WAS in the mood to blog until something happened. And that, made me oh so mad, sad, confused, everything okay. I just dont know what to say.
I dont care who hates me and what not. I KNOW THERE IS A WHOLE LOT OF YOU WHO HATES ME OKAY. Thanks a lot. For your despise has made me independent. I am not speaking of one. But every haters on me. And on another story, I hate my cousin that leaked something about me. I shunt have trust you all. So much of a family. And countless times have I said that I have changed. Which part of that sentence that you all dont understand, I dont know because they seem pretty easy to understand. You all are just some dumb fucks uh, can? FUCK THEM HATERS. FUCK THEM FAMILY OF MINE.

Who is going for SURGE II this 11th June? I wanna enjoy, rot and die.

Syahirah Salji.

♥

2010-05-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

ZRD made me this awesome artpiece! Cute gile seh. I suke. Thanks Zulraidi! *Batting eyelid. ;D

Fuuyohh,
Syahirah Salji.

I LOVE ZULHILMI! ♥

2010-05-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

I, honestly, dont know how to deal with things I am going through now. I think I have made up my mind. I want to live with Zulhilmi. I dont care what others will say cause he meant a lot to me, and thats all that matters.

And for the last time, I love Zulhilmi alot. Spammers dont mean much to me cause I know me and Hilmi, we are perfectly good to each other and we dont do stuffs like you jerks do now. Byebye haters.

Syahirah Salji Cinta Zulhilmi

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

:'(

2010-05-16T16:55:00.001+08:00

i miss you, and you know who you are.

Warning: This post contains vulgars, hatred and more vulgars.

2010-05-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

CCB SAK FAMILY MAKCIK AKU. SERIOUSLY MINTAK KENE TENDANG SIA MUKE JORANG. OKAY, SO I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO BLOG ON THIS UH. NO OTHER WAY I COULD VENT MY ANGER NOW. CB SAK. I MEAN, WE ALL KNOW THAT TODAY IS OBESE'S BIRTHDAY. AND AFTER THE CELEBRATION, ALL OF THEM SHOULD FUCK THEIR ASS OFF MY HOME UH. BUT INSTEAD, THEY CHOOSE TO STAY FOR A NIGHT HERE. I MEAN, I HAVE NO FUCKING ISSUES ON THEM SLEEPING HERE UH. BUT FUCK THEM FOR HAVING TO OWN THIS WHOLE MOTHERFUCKING PLACE UH. FIRSTLY, IF THEY CHOOSE TO SLEEP HERE, THERE SHOULD HAVE SOME FREAKING THOUGHTS FOR PEOPLE WHO LIVES HERE UH. I MEAN DO NOT EVEN TOUCH THE PLACES WE SLEEP UH. MY WHOLE QUEEN SIZE BED HAS NOW BEEN POLLUTED WITH MY COUSIN. WHERE THE FUCK SHOULD I SLEEP NOW, FUCKFACES?! IF YOU, ONE WHOLE FAMILY WANTS TO SLEEP HERE, THEN JOLLY WELL SLEEP AT THE MOTHER FUCKING HALL LA SIAL. NOW THEY OWN MY MUM'S ROOM. THEIR WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY. WHERE SHOULD ME, MY MUM AND MY ADEK SLEEP UH. BUTO SAK PRAANGAI. PRANGAI ANJING TAKDE RUMAH SIAK. PADAHAL ADE KERETA, BOLEH JALANKAN ENGINE ABEH BALEK SIA. BUTO NYE FAMILY. KANINA. I FEEL SO EFFING MAD NOW UH CAUSE YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT? MY MUM, MY MUM HERSELF CAME TO ME AND SAID "Kakak, nak tido ngan mama kat bilek abang adib?" SINCE ADIB IS NOT AROUND. GOD, WHERES THE MERCY, BITCHES! CB, AND MUM BEING HER NORMAL SOFT SPOKEN SELF, HEED HER SAY MACAM LEMBU. ABEH BILE AKU BINGET NGAN MAKCIK, DIE MARAH AKU. BEST OR WHAAAAAT SIA. SIAL LA. KALAU AKU ADE RIGHTS KAN, AKU DA LAME HALAU KORANG LA SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL.

THESE MORONS SHOULD NEVER EXIST. THEY ARE SIMPLY USING MUM AND MUM JUST GAVE THEM THE LEEWAY SIA. DA BESAR KORANG TENGOK ANAK KORANG SUME MACAM SIAL. AKU SUMPAH SAK. THEN KORANG TENGOK JE AKU JAGE MAK AKU SAMPAI BESAR. SAMPAI AKU TUTOP MATE, SAMPAI AKU MATI AKU JAGE MAK AKU LA PUKIMAK. CCHIBAI.

I RINDU ZH A LOT SEH.

2010-05-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Hariz. Kakak tak sabar nak makan cake but mama tak tau bile nak kluakan. Sibeh. -_-

asal kat gamba kau nye hidung tak nampak mcm hidung pinochhio? :/

2010-05-15T01:55:00.001+08:00

I dont understand people nowadays. Specifically, spammers. I have a new one, btw. Mcm cari semut kat hutan seh. Okay, to mnb now. Me and Zulhilmi, we did not do anything intimate, firstly. What is there to like, next. Lastly, why are you so affected? Unless youre telling me straight to my fat face that youre just a plain jealous kid now wanting him or what ever your reason may be. And pleaaase. I am sick of saying spammer. So just write your name. Write critics, whatever. I am just here to read your thoughts. Oh and another advice, if you spammers wanna spam my blog, do not use mat language. I repeat, DO NOT write in mat language. I simply dont understand them. So in another words, youre just writing some crap I dont even get the message you tryna say. You get what I mean, right, dont you?

SOOOOOOOO..

on the contrary, I am happier than I should be apart from the spammer cause MYE is finally over. I want to enjoy fully before getting the result and feel all so down and not over with later. Haha. And I am happy that I met ZH just now. Also, spammer mnb actually thought I had sex with ZH when I dont. Hahahah. Loser. LOSER. Okay, so anyway, another thing I should be happy about is the weekends are here, dammit. DAMMIT, weekends, here I come loveee. Hehehehehehehhee. Nak tidur all the way, can?

Syahirah Salji.

2010-05-14T01:18:00.001+08:00

ZH.♥

2010-05-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

2010-05-12T01:50:00.001+08:00

Nak blog but tired gile. Tadi meet Z nye mum. It was awesome uh. Kecoh. Kay la. Tu je. Sorry, malas nak bebual english.

Spammer ohh spammer.

2010-05-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

To : Lela

So this is my real overview picture. I agree with you I am fat, okay. I have never ever said I was skinny or slender in the first place. Maybe I did when I was kidding to my friend about me being anorexic. Haha. But girl, you know what? When I said I was anorexic and stuff, I was saying it sarcastically but it doesnt hurt right? Afterall, I was referring to myself. I don't see why you have to comment on that but hey, thanks for dropping your thoughts here. Oh, and gnight, lady.

Syahirah Salji.

GO GO POWER RANGERSSSSSSS.

2010-05-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

FACTS ABOUT ME:

1. I am stress for MYE.

2. I am in love.

3. I love my mum.

4. I hate being fat.

5. But I love being fat at times.

6. I have watched Koizora twice and I cried for both.

7. I never liked barbie dolls.

8. I want to have a car, and a license of course.

9. I dont really favour motocycles.

10. I hate my dad.

11. I am mugging for tmr later.

12. I dont wanna study, in another way.

13. It has been long since I had m&m chocolates.

14. I am listening to gypsy while doing this.

15. I skip religious class today.

16. Its already 12.35 now.

17. I should start mugging over tmr now.

18. I am a lazybumbum.

19. I feel like having bubble tea now.

20. I dont drink coffee.

21. I love Zulhilmi a lot.

22. I am starting to love longboard, but not falling down.

23. I dont wanna break my collar bone like Zair did.

24. This facts will take me long.

25. I miss my awesome sibs, Shan, J, Zair and all.

26. I want no education system.

27. I want the weather to be good on us.

28. I want Zulhimi.

29. I hate the way school treats us.

30. I love math, but I am weak at it.

31. I love art but I am lazy to draw so much.

32. I am left with 18 more facts to write.

33. I hate sandman at time, but I sorta pity 'it'.

34. Sam tsui sings good.

35. I love raspy voice for myself.

36. I love my ghetto clique.

37. I miss Zubaidah.

38. Today is Mothers day and my mum is not around.

39. Tomorrow will suck.

40. I have no phone or cameras anymore.

41. I miss Zulhilmi a lot.

42. I want a hug so badly.

43. Oh, I will hug Feet tomorrow.

44. I feel like piercing a lot.

45. And tattoos too, but remember that I want to repent?

46. I love to laugh, haha.

47. Glozell is cool.

48. I love glee too.

49. I will tag people to do this.

50. Lastly, I love ZH.

I am tagging Anna, Zaqeer, Shan, and Feet to do this! :)

I am sick of using old photos.

2010-05-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

Hello, readers. Before I start my session of mugging for tomorrow's paper, I will blog just a little bit. So, about my life, studies are dropping, I feel that. Love life, humm. Love life. Its complicated. I kinda fall for this guy. But at the same time, this other guy kinda fall for me. But I still miss my first love. I ALREADY WARNED YAHH. So anyways, I think I will just keep low and see how it goes. On the other side of the story, I am planning to get myself really into studies. And like seriously get done and over with O level. It is killing my brain cell by the minute when I am studying and not helping me to remember all those formulas, formats, equations and all sia.
I am writing random stuffs because I dont even know what to blog about! :(

Syahirah Salji sayang ZH.

Bbyg♥

2010-05-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to my sweet lady over here, Fitrah Kamilah. I know I cant do much, especially when Ive got no phone, and I am broke. I dont like seeing you sad during your birthday. So I thought the least, this could make you feel better. And I am very sure I love you, and that you will forever stay to be my babi B. Hehehehehehehhehehehehhee. See you around, missy.
Syahirah rindu Feetrah sangat sangat. Esok Syahirah nye turn gi madrasah. ;)

Syahirah Salji.

broken.

2010-05-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

I feel ugly, sad, down, and hopeless right now. Dont ask me why, cause I dont know myself. I hate this feeling. Plus the fucking sore throat, flu, cough and all, it makes it worse. And mid year examination? This sucks, totally. I can't wait to die, somehow sometime. :(

H.

2010-05-07T09:16:00.002+08:00

sumpah cute gile. hehe.

SNyonya maseh ade tak? :(

2010-05-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Woodlands Secondary would be sitting for Mid Year Examinations tomorrow. So, all the best, mates. And that applies to me too since I haven't been doing my work. Gee. MYE will be based on whatever I know, and luck. :(

Anyways, updating with my day, I had a lot of fun during recess with the rest. Especially when we talked about Glozell. Haha. I miss fun. I miss studying too, somehow. Kay la. I am going nerds again for this few minutes before I go to bed later. Got to meet Feet♥ in the morning to revise some stuffs. Gbye lovely people.

Syahirah Salji.

I have failed as a student, daughter and a sister. I am sorry.

2010-05-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I am really really pissed. With how I spent my weekends as well as my labour day. I did not study a shit, thats one. I did not guide Hariz with his homeworks, another. And lastly, I bring my mum down. I hate everything about myself for this moment, that I know. That's all.

I can't wait for Glee's next episode! Can you? Especially you, Zqr.

ADIB JUST FARTED IN MY ROOM. :(

2010-05-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

I think it is time to say this. I have made a promised to myself and my mum, that last week, was the last time ever I would puff those nicotines and tars and whatever poison there is in a cigarette. It has been a week of not smoking. Going well, though temptations of having it goes on and off, I made it for a week. Achieving this, would make myself proud to get out of this addiction. At least my addiction wasn't that bad, but still. So, all the best to myself.

And at the same time, I am quitting the habit of biting nails, drinking any alcoholic drinks, and also to start repenting! "It's never too late." Love you guys! :)

Mission.

whole chunk of words.

2010-05-02T11:13:00.000+08:00

Something about myself now since it has been long since I blog anything about myself other than my studies and such. Okay, so here it goes. Now, I could say it with no doubt that life has been not much of a stress shit like how it used to be. Proudly saying, cause I am a free bitch now. Haha. But studies, doesnt make it better uh. At least it is not as bad as having a boyfriend. I have been thinking more about studies than other things lately. How much I want to improve my studies but sadly, its not working. Humm. See, it was meant to be about my life and now its about studies again. Okay, back to my life. Yesterday, I went to granny's home. It has been months since I visit her, I tell you. Everything was fine there, alhamdulilah. Oh, the best part was to eat all those scrumptious food prepared by all aunts and that includes my mum. Whoaa, shiok sia. Then followed by the show 'susuk' with cousins. I miss those fun. Humm. Oh, I have been living without a phone for I guess a week plus close to two weeks I think. Feels like it. Haha. What else? MYE STARTS THIS 5TH APRIL! :( Not prepared yet. FUCK, talking bout which, art aku belum start sia. Kay da da, I have got to run now. A lot of things to be done.

grr.

gLeek.

2010-05-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

That is Artie from Glee. And oh, thanks to Zaqeer now I am addicted to Glee like a drug addict addicted to drugs. Haha. Back to Artie. I just watched some few clips of him on youtube and he is not bad in real life siaa. And I think you guys should see it too.

SEE!

Hot kannn. ><

5 days of not smoking now! : DDDDDDD

2010-04-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

My studies. Has dropped badly. I never had the thought to put it back in place, or in track with all my other peers. One year, of the same thing, is enough. I have to be strict to myself. I have to gain back what I've thrown aside all these years. Enough of fun. It is time for me to put my full attention and priority on studies. No one would know how disappointed I am at my own self. No one, i tell ya. I wanna start this again.

Even though friends could be tempting to just waste my life at times.

what the FUCK.

2010-04-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

Okay guys, there will be a lot of vulgars here okay. Firstly, I have no bloody idea why my computer is laggy now. And it's annoying me, like some kind of motherfucking annoying kinda annoying. I understand if you say you dont understand a frigging shit here uh. But to hell with it. Back to my computer, it got me so effing worked up uh. I could sit here all day, cursing this goddamn computer and forget about my homework. Oh! Another one. Homework. FUCK IT. No seriously, fuck it. So, I was doing my math homework just now, and I dont get a fucking shit out of any of the question. So I gave up after like one and half hour of trying and not producing anything uh! Then I went to causeway, as I just remembered of English ten years series book that I have to get, prolly like a friggin century back uh. AND THE FUGGIN BOOK IS OUT OF STOCK UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I wasted like CLOSE TO ONE MUTHAFUCKING HOUR uh. And now when I am back to net, its fucken laggy again uhhhhhh siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Sujimy mati mati nak aku update. But Feetrah maseh belum send gamba soo..

2010-04-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

Everything is a bitch now. My phone broke down, and never revive back. I am sleepy now, and its just 10.45pm. I think I've gained weight. And I slouch a lot. Guys wise, no nothing with anyone yet. Studies, has been slacking. I am going nowhere. Tmr, I have class in the morn.

Apart from that fml moments, I had mylifeisgood moment too. I had tremendous fun with ghetto clique and bimbotic birthday celebration ever. Gonna turn in early tonight. Had dinner at Sakura buffet with Feet and all. And I could type with my eyes semi open now since i am effing sleepy.

Lastly, gnight. I will update more once the pictures are in alright.

deal.

2010-04-18T22:31:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAAHA. YES AHHH. I WIN.

To: Anna. and Zqr.

2010-04-18T14:15:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by Anna to blog on old pictures. So here it goes.

This is mua 2007 i guess.

This is when I was dating with An.

Above are all my zaman pakai eyeshadow kat bawah. I dont know how I end up that way but uh, i am a reformed kid now.

Ya allah. Ni la zaman eyeliner.

But ni gamba sec 1. legend rabak..

All of those tempt me to write on obese nye zaman kulus.

and uh, his drawings too.

His first ever picture that was snapped by me.

muke die baru bangan tido. cute kannnnn.

back then, he was so innocent.

then it was his birthday. he thought hes a big boy now. and that was whenn ..

he became a naughty boy.

he started to eat a lot. tembammmm.

i. as a sister. i prayed for him. (ignore the fact that i dont know how to in the first place)

he didnt wanna listen to me. die fikir die kuat.

his drawings.

Nek Mah masak sedap. (Y)

2010-04-15T19:06:00.000+08:00

Back to getting my mind on studies now. I have been slacking after common test. I was down to see myself downgrading on my subjects since I took my math test just now. Gee. I did not even reached the passing mark. Buat malu je. Kay da la. That's all. Oh, and Madam Yong didn't turn up just now. So, it was a waste for those that didn't come.

I had a lot of fun playing with Zubaidah's clip-on hair extension the other day. Haha. Speaking of which, let me just wish her for her birthday in advance. Hehehehehe. I wish you well and have a fruitful year ahead, you sweet lil pumpkin. I cant wait to meet you! ;)

So here are some pictures with the extension. Share with me your views, kay! :D

BYEBYE.

believe.

2010-04-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

So true. I am doing everything on my own now. No more relying on others.

KurtHugoSchneider.

BACK TO ART! Mam Yong is back! ;) Gluck all other art students!

later.

2010-04-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

ive been slacking in studies. i know it, and i hate it.

BURRRRRRP!

2010-04-11T10:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I had a lot of fun with the bunch of great people of 4C09. I was looking forward for YanHong's arrival but she didn't turn up. Nevertheless, I enjoyed myself there. Oh, and Nazura went home before we even took pictures. So yea. She has been so pretty now. Heh. Our barbeque set up did not really work out but the nasi lemak was awesome.

so lets just say a lot of happy moments happened and i am lazy to elaborate it. haha.
ilove4c09. ):

rush hour

2010-04-10T10:12:00.000+08:00

Currently: Rushing for time.

Okay, reason being is, I am fickle whether to go or not to go for my english class that i've paid for 12 lessons via edusave. I have to also get a present by 11am for my brother as he is going for a birthday party. But I also have to get ready to meet Feetrah at 12.30noon later for art and meet Shan afterwards for 4C09's sorta reunion something. SEEE. Today is totally pack. But I am still deciding on the english class. If I don't go, it's a waste.
HOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW?!

i bet you guys are wondering why am i even blogging when i am in a rush. -_-

AKU NGANTOK GILE. BOLEH NANGES.

2010-04-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

POP - My juniors was not as affected as other section's junior. Haha. They're awesome now, aren't they? Whilst other kids were crying for I dont know what either, my kids are having fun. -___- Forever. So anyways, this is for you juniors, I am sorry if I hadn't been a good senior, if I didn't inject you knowledge and etc. Penat aku ajar ajar. Gee. So anyways, I received clips, cards, hair clips, and more hair clips. Seems like my hair is getting all the attention. Haha. So, basically, Ive got nothing to blog about.

Okay, so apart from POP, shits happened. Let's not mention name(s) and call .. X. But you should know who you are. X did something I didn't expect. X said harsh words, that really cut me like a dagger that is stabbed right through my chest. X and others wouldn't understand this feeling that has been building inside of me. Lastly, I hope X really really changed.

♥

2010-04-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Guys, I am not okay. Though I look the opposite, no one really knows what lies beneath this layer of mask. I just couldn't keep holding it on to myself. I know it myself, one day, I have to let this go. But no. I've tried and it's not working. By any means that I've tried, I still couldn't let this thing go. There's a lot of problems for me to handle. I wanna start anew, a new life, a new background of family if I could, and myself reformed. I just don't understand why a soul have to go through all this. I am aware of others that have gone through the worst ever yet, I still couldn't accept this. Not yet, not when I am this weak.

Maybe, I just wanna be alone, sometimes.

Pure.

GOOD LUCK ANNA FOR YOUR OPERATION! ♥

2010-04-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

Sorry for not updating blog for quite some time now. Reason being is, my keyboard is giving me a lot of problems. And god knows it. Okay, I lied. Feet and Payn knows it too, and have been disturbing me ever since. Okay, so lets start off with my day.

I am bloggin now because of
1) my blog is getting dead
2) Suhaila is checking out other's blog and she asked about mine.
So that's why I am posting this post now.

So anywaaaaaays, PE was really really, awesome. One reason being is, I PASSED MY 2.4KM WITH ONLY ONE TRY! and that means no more tries after this.

I am seriously stoning over this post and I've got not idea on what to blog about. But thats TOTALLY normal, i tell ya. Haha.

imma be posting another post soon, y'all! :)

2010-04-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

Drain out by satisfaction,
Worn out as it goes by.
I guess I've lost the election,
As i can see the ground is plain and dry.

Sitting all alone in space & time
Singing all day long.
All I do is to peel of the endless lime,
Which I don't know who does it belong.

All the sadness have come to the end,
While all the elements have stop.
It's such a pity not to be bend,
Where everything could hop.

Feeling fine when I met you,
Regrets came by to meet me.
All I do is to gaze in the blue,
Which all I see is you.

Many things came across us,
As it bonds with each other.
I don't know how long it could last,
As the element cant be gathered.

-Khair (Marry Sucker/Marry Joe)

love

2010-04-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

I had an awesome saturday with awesome sibs. By right it was me and Shan uh. But we hit RP since J was there. So yea. I had so much fun though. Love yall. ♥

ISBBD

2010-04-02T15:27:00.001+08:00

It was never the way I want it to be.

2010-04-02T14:11:00.001+08:00

How deep is your love - The bird and the bee.

I love your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
and the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again.

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love then you softly leave me
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down they should all just let us be
We belong to you and me
I believe in you

You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall

And you may not think that I care for you
well you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?

How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down they should all just let us be
We belong to you and me
I believe in you.

god knows how much i love you.

hurts.

2010-04-02T14:00:00.000+08:00

Do you know how hard for one to fall in love? What more getting into a relationship after a year, getting over your ex. Have you ever wondered? How much you meant to me. I never wanna fall in love. And once I do, I never want to be apart from you. I guess, I just love you too much. Byebye.

Speech day

2010-04-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

With ZQR's hippie band. HAHA. -_-

Yesterday was the very last performance the graduating students could ever offer. I didn't plan to be in, but in the end, I am in. All the best for the following batch. :)

While waiting at the holding area.

And so.

Uhuuu~ aft the performance. With Thomas.

My 14 years of friendship with Dzul. Awesome.

Last but not least,

My favourite. hahahahhaha. Bose.

Sadly, theres no picture with ZQR alone and Sherfah didnt attend to sch. Sigh.

But all the best anyways. And to graduating students, all the best for Os. :)

Maybe its just me.

2010-03-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

Izzwann Shah. My love, my bestfriend, my husband.

stress

2010-03-30T15:08:00.000+08:00

Aku nak kluar blaja now. I miss my baby boo uh. I am having a lot of thoughts and matters to think about now. I dont even think I could handle this. God, tolong aku. Da la. Bye korang. And to you, i love love you.

FAIL.

2010-03-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

I have been through a lot of heartbreaking moments. I have been through the worst. Ever since then, I never want to fall in love. Cause falling in love is equivalent to getting myself ready for another heartbreak. But when you came to my life, all those thoughts were being pushed away. Its like as if, this is a new chance for me to revive my sinking heart back.

~~I HATE IT NOW.~~

cinta.

2010-03-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

Look how cute he is. Haha. I dont understand why he doesnt love this. But I do though. Huhu. So I miss this guy here. Hes off to Somerset to skate. Geeeee. So, should I study now. Ive been slacking sia. Okay, I should. Bye humans. Sayang korang. Cinta Izzwann.

cinta.

2010-03-21T00:44:00.000+08:00

I will heed no says thats against us.

I will ignore all those obstacles coming through our way.

I will listen to all critics and walk away, not bothering it.

And this is all because I love Izzwann Shah. And I believe he loves me too.

As long as we are sincere, i dont mind all those shits coming towards us.

NurSyahirah cinta Izzwann Shah.

Semalam

2010-03-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

Semalam, aku bertindak ke Eunos untuk bertemu kekasihku, Izzwann. Walaupun dia lewat ke perhentian kereta api Eunos, aku tetap mengendahkannya lalu memberinya peluk. Dia pula berkata, 'B, I belum mandi. I tertidur.' Aku menunjukkan ekspressi di muka di mana aku tidak berpuas hati dengan kelakuannya, tetapi di dalam hati aku bergelak ketawa. Alangkah chomel kekasihku ini. Kami pula mula mengarah ke rumahnya. Oh tidak, kami ke suatu tempat dan berduduk sebentar sambil menghisap rokok. Selepas itu, aku menunggu Izzwann di kolong bloknya sementara dia bersiap-siap. Setelah itu, kami bertemu lagi dan berduduk di taman permainan berdekatan rumahnya. Kami pula bercadang untuk bertemu Inaa yang telah mengajakku ke Arab st untuk shisha. Semalam juga, adalah pertama kali aku bertemu Inaa. Hidung nya mancung! Aku suka.

(AKU DA GIVE UP MELAYU)

Little did we know that Inaa and Izzwan are neighbours of the same estate but different blocks. Sucha small world. I enjoyed my night at Arab st and Eunos with bby.

Baby, I love you. Now that youre mine, I will never wanna lose you. I swear.

SuperNyonya Cinta Izzwann Shah B B D.

bby

2010-03-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

I am meeting ♥ tmr.

Yesterday.

2010-03-16T18:18:00.000+08:00

SEMANGAT.

Bestfriend. Hahaha. Muke same kan.

Baby, aku tak gatal la.

BITCH.

2010-03-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

Fuck you, hoe. I have been tolerating your nonsensical attitude uh. Think maturely uh, selfish bitch. And how old are you again? Hold up, we're off the same age! Sigh, sucha shame on you. Even I have been through a year of relationship, okay. How much it hurts to have the one you love to leave you, is how bad you want him back. I know how you feel uh, girl. But to think of it, you're just a chapter of his life that has now long gone. You seriously have to learn uh. First love, I believe doesn't last for both me and you. You've gotta learn how to let go just like I did uh babe. All those words you tryna shoot through me, isnt working. Yes, it got me pissed, but I have no intention to shoot those back at you. You win at pissing me off, but not giving up on what I wanna own. You can just do all you want, I am not stopping you. It's your life, it isn't mine. One day, you will get tired of it, and slowly leave me to peace. That is all I have to say. I leave you with choice. To either waste your time gaining your revenge on him or I, or you could just lay back and leave us now when you gonna realize that you have been wasting time on this.

Reflect back.

2010-03-15T01:27:00.000+08:00

I laughed so loud at 1 in the morning for this. Thanks eh..

I miss Izwan. Poor lil baby for falling sick. I cant wait for weekends. And weekdays (its holidays btw) isnt like any holiday at all! That reminds me of which, Ive got school at 8am tmr, and ends at 4pm.

get well soon panda.

2010-03-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

Izwan is sick. So speedy recovery to bby.

i love you.

2010-03-14T02:53:00.000+08:00

i went out with hubby just now. i just dont understand all this stalking means. but on thing for sure, i love izwan.

:(

2010-03-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

MOTHER. I just had a tiff with mother. How much stress I had, I never bother to realize that all my anger, i had vented it on her. But how much a mother goes through, is even worst than what I am going through now. True much. Mother won the argument. I couldnt stand her victory over me, thereby I locked myself in my room and started punching all the goddamn walls. Later did I feel the pain and started breaking to tears. I was indeed inferior. At the end of the day, I still go to mother and pleaded her to mend my injured hands. Despite all the fights, the raising of tone at her, all the stress I have implied on her, she still lend her hand to give me a massage on my hands.
All I wanted to say here is "I am sorry, Mama. So sorry."

'it hurts to have these salty tears on the scar on my cheeks. but it hurts even more to hurt your own mother, when at the end of the day, she still cares about you and all she ever want from you is to treat her like her own. like your bestfriend.' - twitter.com/supernyonya

I love you Mother. And Izwan, I am sorry. Talk to me.

Izzwann. Uhuuu~

2010-03-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

This is before the cut.

After the cut and tied half.

After the cut, and tied fully.

After the cut, tied, and stud.

But the best is this.

p/s I am not the one that could cut her hair easily. Sigh.

sayang nye pasal

2010-03-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

hello humans. so hubby wants to see my art work. but the quality isnt that good uh. sorry.

here it goes..

gamba bonus. ni also die nak tengok. gi mamam la babi.

bye.

♥

2010-03-07T16:05:00.000+08:00

due to the recent damage on my mouse, i will postpone my displaying of my current art work for hubby. ♥

so, hereby, id also love others to know that izwann is a nice boyyyy. aku sayang die even if he mistaken me for some keling. HAHAH. babi.

restricted love?

2010-03-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

State : Confused.

Previously, I was not interested in anymore love after Razaaq, or should I say An. For all those that has their first love, they would know how it feels to be apart from their first love, and after a few months, you get to see him again. You would feel the sense of belonging again. But as I am back, together with him, be it friends or more than that, there is still this feeling that it is pointless to build it up. How badly I want it back, is how bad I sense something coming through our way. And yes, indeed. He still has feelings for a girlA and I, started to like guyA. But deep down inside, i still crave for him. And I hope he does too. Are we just not meant?

It has been long since I write anything about love in a paragraph. So there it is. Somehow, I find myself dumb, writing about love. So yea. Today, we are having cheer prac. I hope everyone put in their cooperation and also contributions. Audition will be on coming Monday, and that sucks. So, gotta push myself now.

Byebye, readers. ♥

izwanhubby.

2010-03-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

fuckkk, so it is supposed to be big. but you could try all means to view it. hehe. izwanhubby is so funny! ^^v

Boobless Betty is a bitch.

2010-03-03T00:40:00.000+08:00

Good girl kan aku kat skola. Haha. So anyways, this was during Math lesson. Sigh, why do I deserve having Kamil at the background? He just spoils everything uh! Haha. Common test results werent out yet but Math. It was quite a relief to know that I passed my Math. By now, I can be sure that my EL, SS, Geog, and Chem will not be a satisfactory to me. Talking of which, CHEMISTRY! I, Nursyahirah, has never been so rude to any subject teacher until .. Mrs or Ms Betty Low came about as my Chem teacher. That sucks, totally. I wont elaborate it uh. Cause I will get pissed talking bout that bitch. So anyways, I have made up my mind. I shall do Chem studies my own self without the help of that yknw what. Haha. Thats about it today in school.

And, after school, theres Social Studies. Was fun talking about Hobo. Haha. Then Band came along after that. Which sucks too. Cause theres just nothing to do. Sigh. My night was spent well on Social Studies ious. I look sick btw.

And whats up with the keroh eyes uh. >=/

Byebye Superhumans.

*^##%&^%$

2010-03-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

as promised, here is the logo i made for band uniform. but why is it pink? dont ask me.

I am hearing Yiruma, River flows in you.

2010-02-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yknw what I feel like doing now? I feel like teleporting myself to dreamland. Like, sleep and this very instant, and forget about whatever shits I am thinking of now. Even though what I am thinking now is words I am typing down on my blog. Maybe one of the reason is, I feel like eating every second (trust me, even now. Or maybe even when you're reading this, I still feel like eating.) and the thought that I am getting fatter every second when I am thinking about food 24/7. Sigh. BUT. Another reason I feel like sleeping now is perhaps the thought of school tomorrow and my sickness now. Should I go? I've been sick for like .. MORE THAN A WEEK LA SIOL. (Now that I've just counted the number of days I have been sick, I was shocked. So thats the reason for caps locking.) Sigh oh sigh.

Thinking of baby now, apart from what I am typing now, that is. I miss him a lot sia. I swear. I want him to be beside me. Sleep with me. Cuddle me tight while I am asleep. Then Id look at him in the eyes, And get to dreamland. Wake up the first thing in the morning, and next, see his pink eyelids close before me and kiss him on his forehead before I go to school. :(

RZQxboyf.

2010-02-28T15:54:00.001+08:00

>=@

2010-02-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

I. Am not happy. Have I told you guys that my phone and camera was lost. Or more like stolen or someth? Well yes, and I guess thats the reason behind me and my mono blog as I dont really like blogging with no picture, sorta. So anyways, I will blog pretty much about anything but with no new pictures that is. And oh, I am saving my money and been spending on it. Which concludes to .. no savings at the end of the day. Fml. Thats about it.

xlve.

2010-02-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

2 years. ♥

2010-02-21T15:12:00.000+08:00

Blog babies, I just had my nose pierce! viva! Mama was pretty mad about it. But I guess shes okay with it now cause she came to me and asked what kinda stud i am wearing that she cunt see it. Haha. Mama, mama. Oh, and yes. I am getting fatter. I seriously have to hit the gym again uh. Haha.

Current mood :

Hyper but sick. FML. :(

In the Village on top of the mountain, we can see stars.

2010-02-16T04:07:00.000+08:00

So, the trip that I never really bother knowing turned out to be a kampong stay or what you call it the village stay. It was a mind relaxing after days of art preps, studies and all sorts of stress. I was quite pleased there as everything was arranged perfectly for our family of 30+.

Nothing much happened on the first day. We spent two hours plus in the car to get through the jam at the Tuas Checkpoint to Malaysia. Upon reaching Malaysia for a few seconds, theres another jam for the touchNgo tol. It lasted for quite some time. After getting through the tol, a minute of drive to another jam. Jam after another, basically. Dont wish to elaborate any futher on jams. -____-''

At last, we reached the foot of the mountain at Kuala Pilah. It was followed by some curvy roadways as we go up the hill. We got pretty bored and played some few games that Hariz farted countless times in a row. The car was polluted with the stink. We even thought it was cow dungs. HAHA. Granny even laughed her ass out sia. We had to wind down the windows. It was awful, I tell ya. So, after the countless unwanted gas produced by Hariz, we decided not to have anymore games in case he gets excited and fart over it again.

Me and some few cousins were racing for the toilet as soon as we reached the place, but too bad, we had to settle down and get some drinks and snacks before we could check in the place. It was fascinating to stay in a house with 7 rooms (one for each family), and the backyard filled with traditional games (and i dont know how come theres a basketball court at the yard too! :S), theres also the front and back living room. The place is basically huge uh. Not as much mosquitoes I thought it would be. We then settle down and get some rest before we had our dinner. OH OH, and the food there was scrumptiously fucking nice! :) Then we played Twister. Adib was so funny! Head back to our "home".

SECOND DAY WAS A BLAST! We went to the Waterfall straight after our breakfast. It was hell of fun I tell ya. Something no one would wanna miss! Even my Mum went for it. It was thy most exciting part of all! Except that the bruises on my ankle. It was not funny. We spent hours there that we didnt notice the time uhh, then rushed back to the village for some prepared games there by my eldest cousin. It was more to like bonding games, and it needs a lot of togetherness in there. Even my Grannys sister joined us. And that, lasted for few hours too! Fun gile siak. We played soccer, dog&bone, and a lot of other fun games. After that big day before us, we went for a shower and went for dinner after that then head to Restoran Warisan. The Restoran Warisan, wasnt that bad after all. Mama actually went up for a dance with the traditional song that they were playing. Then Shydan accompanied and dance with Mama soon after. Everyone started to join in the dancefloor and dance whatever they can traditionally. It was funny cause no one there knew how to dance traditionally except for Mama and Aunt. HAHA. I was so shagged that I went to bed straight after when we reached the village again. And got to know that the rest went out to the field and lie down as they watched the stars while Uncle share some scary stories. >=( NOT FAIR! sigh.

The third day was the one I dint like the most. Everything went well. I played 'congkak' a lot! Heh. But anyways, this is how it went for the third day, we got off the village at around 2 after noon. Spent around 3 hours to reach Klebang for the pony ride my little cousins wanna have. Well, I had it too. IT WAS FUCKING SCARY OKAY. and i dont wish to elaborate on this too. :'( The actual plan which is to go for some shopping at Bandar Hilir was canceled due to the time constraint. (We shunt have gone to the pony ride. Urgh.) So we headed to a coffee shop to get dinner and get gone to HOME SWEET HOME. phew. (And I swear I hate it cause Hariz took like half of the seat at the back of the car and left me and Jannah with a quarter each. HOW IRRITATING.)

Mama belikan chewing gum. SEDAAAP!
nanti gamba, aku amek dari the rest baru aku load okayyyy. GO!

47

2010-02-08T23:26:00.002+08:00

See that lady up there? She is none other than my crankiest yet beloved mum ever. Apart from all the pressure she is piling on me, I couldn't deny any further how much I love her, and how much she have brought me up. Sorry to disappoint you, Mama. I will change. Sooner or perhaps later. :S So anyways, on top of all those ups and downs, I will never forget to say this on every 9th February.

HAPPY 47th BIRTHDAY, MAMA TERSAYANG.

where is the love.

2010-02-08T18:56:00.002+08:00

I miss having someone by me. I mean it, seriously. Sigh.

i wanna break free.

2010-02-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

I am stress due to all these homeworks and all these kuih making orders and art O level and everything else. NO, please do not pile ol other stress. I had enough. And I am still trying to endure everything. Sorry for not blogging frequently. And to Raudha, I am taking O level. Heh. Those out there whos taking Os, good luck for all of you, thou its still early to have said these. Haha. It seems near to me, that is.

Anyways, a lot has happened and I dont wish to elaborate on it. Its just too long to type it down now. Itll be essay of 500 words or perhaps more.

♥

2010-02-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

When I grow up, I wanna be just like Lilly Allen. Even my mum hears her.

our true friendship can go and die now. so much of being true or rather, bff .

2010-01-28T18:13:00.001+08:00

Where is the friendship I used to know?

I did what I could. Yet you're not putting any effort. So why do I still care? If I know I could live without a boyfriend, I don't see why I can't live without friends now. I guess, I am better off alone. Rather than having all of you as my friends but they are just titles for show. Then why do we still have to keep that name. Boy, you can throw 'em all down the drain, i don't give a shit. You can do whatever you like, you may not heed my says no more, I still don't give a damn. You're all on your own, and I will lead my own too. That won't be much of a problem to me, since I am already getting use to this shit already. Now, I realize, even friendship that has stayed strong for four fucking years can crash down just like that.

I HATE ALL THE FUCKING THINGS BETWEEN US NOW.

Screw Sci and Humans. >=(

2010-01-27T13:42:00.001+08:00

I had two days of MC from the Dr. Yeayness to that. At least Ive got a rest from school and thats the whole thing about it. Its nothing serious but the Dr made it sounds so bad. Sigh. Hah. Okay, so now I am currently bored rotting at home whilst the rest are happily studying at school. :( Thats it, at last, tmr I am going to school. YEAY. And maybe meet Alif after school for a two hours session of studying with him. I hope. Haha. Should I meet Razaaq on the friday or saturday? Hmm, he is sucha busy man. Sigh. I seriously need to get started with Humanities and Science siah. I am so back behind time now.

Lets not talk about school. Ive been thinking too much on school. Let me thinkkkk ..

I have nothing to talk about other than school. =S I am sucha geek, doncyall know that by now? ahhaha. I have no love life to tell, I have no family stories to share, and I have no fun stuffs with a friend to write about. Theres nothing other than school. I even doubt anyone reading my blog that much now. HAHA. So if there is readers, could you just do me a small favour by tagging my tagboard telling me the things you want me to share with the readers.

eg:

LuluGangstarSatSiao: eyhszxzsxz, guahh nark lu blog psl lu nye skola ahhh. guahh tark skola luhh siah. nark jugark guahh tawuk psl skola. *insert fierce face*

HAHAHAHA. da da, bye sumoranggg~

psst , i had a hard time remembering Alif's name like I always did.

runaway.

2010-01-26T00:01:00.001+08:00

I wanna run away from all those piles of school work. Or maybe Os too. I wish.

aku pass math test, at last? bile tah nak pass humans and sci. :(

no stealing.

2010-01-24T13:51:00.000+08:00

AT LAST SIUL. So, this is one of the best drawing for art prep. And no, its not carbon copied. =)

Art has been the hardest subject to cope.

2010-01-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

I went out with Nashke today. It was indeed a long day. Till we get so tipsy and crapped all the way in the train back home. But all we did was to snap pictures for art. Didnt know that modelling would take so much of effort. Especially to walk up and down the stairs/hill or lay down on the grass to get a low view picture. We headed to National Museum for the soft breeze of the air con. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. And later realized that we took 300+ snap in one and half hour.

I have no stories to tell. And I bet yall know how sucky O level year is. D';

Happy.

booyah.

2010-01-17T22:19:00.001+08:00

EYY, I miss having this hairstyle somehow. Should I cut it? But that would be sucha waste to cut my hair that is now THIS long. =( My hair is sucha mess now that its unorganized no more. Not as organized as it used to be. I have turned out to be such a care free person now. Sigh.

SO ANYWAYSSSSSS~ I pretty much missed blogging. No, seriously. Its just that I couldnt load and lazy to snap new pictures to blog about. And it feels awkward now to blog without any related pictures, seriously. But here I am again, blogging with old pictures. So bear with it okay.

Just now, I went to do touch up on my sketches while J and Ariffin studied some other things, or maybe they dont. Lol. So we came to a point that we suddenly thought of how prom will turn out to be this year. We talked and giggled about prom dates. I was also wondering whod my date be. Gee. Or maybe I shunt think of having one. =/ Okay okay, back to the sketches, I thought it would be nice to load it here, but sadly, my memory card is giving me tantrums and I dont know how they do that. LOL. I will, load it soon when I could. NO, SERIOUSLY. ==

I try to blog tomorrow too. I am not kidding. Or maybe I am not serious this time round. 8D

dont worry, i lve blogging. i will do that soon again. byebloggerworld. `hearts.<3

-SN.

ART : (

2010-01-13T18:54:00.000+08:00

Ive decided to write an entry on art. So, just like any other art students taking O level, I am also stressed now. And yes, the above painting is my interpretation on artists work. I am only good at human and their features. Sadly, the topics that came out for O level this year, have got nothing to do with humans at all.
Topics are :
* Flying kite.
* Electrical items.
* Bridges.
* Segmented.
* Knots.
* Fashion accessories.
What the fuck la. So, i decided to heed to my last resort; to screw art this year. HAHA. I guess I will go for segmented and try to apply some human features inside. Lol. Doing it my own way. And most importantly, screw 'em.

To the uninitiated, I designed the band tee last year and its out now like finally. Only to know that the colour of my design is so gay siaaa. Once I collect my band tee, I will snap a picture of it and put it on show at blog. The colour make me wanna puke. Its like some light pink that they assume on their own instinct that that is purple just like how the band voted. But purple is not any better anyways. Speaking of designing shirts, my classmates have been looking at me, well some of them at least, like a sign for me to design the shirt when my former teacher was discussing about that matter of having a class tee or not. Goddamnit. So, I guess I will be designing another shirt. I will try to get help somewhere tho. I cunt possibly do everything alone during this critical year sia. So mates, if you wanna design, you can come and help or maybe do the whole designing. HEHE. Pemalas nye aku ni.

On top of all that art related stuff, here I am, trying to fit some things about my life. Hehe. So anyways, I know this man, he's AJ. Or what you call Ahmad Jumaidi. He is a nice guy id say. A very nice guy. He would stay just to hear me and made me smile over the silliest thing like calling me 'chilli girl'. I wont wanna see him go like th others did. His definition of a true friend is the one i would love to have and I think Ive found that friend - thats you, AJ.

WA LUP SAMA LU-!
SuperNyonya. : )

No, I am not losing it.

2010-01-10T01:50:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not having new picture. =/

Hey humans. It has been quite some time since I write something here. Not much to write anyways. The past two days(8th and 9th), I went to SP and RP. I read through the booklet and in conclusion, I guess RP is a better option than of SP because of the courses they offer. Furthermore, Adib is in SP. I dont know if he will like it if I were to be in the same school with him though. =w= So I thought RP was a better option since they offer designing courses and also they have capoeira! (Y)(Y) oh goody goody. :) Capoeira ftw! Okay now, get hold of yourself. Lol. Later yesterday, after I reached home from RP's open house, Nashke called and talked about poly of his dream and its going to be Ngee Ann or someth. He also gave me some says that I should go for TP. Well, I once thought of TP. TP is the, i guess 2nd or 3rd poly in Singapore if I am not wrong. It would be better if I get the course that I liked, especially when it would be at some top few rated poly, right? But oh god, its over at tampines if I get this right. All I know is, its not somewhere near north though. This is tougher than I thought it would be like. Sigh.

2010 to me, has changed me from the girl that talks a lot of crap, shitting around, playing all over everywhere, and all that you used to know, has changed to this quiet girl now, I notice. I have not been in the mood to talk a lot in school lately. I even tend to think about Os and how paranoid I was with it. >=( and its not fun. But just wish me lucks in time to come for my Os alright. I dont wanna lose this chance for a brighter future.

Something you wont wanna waste time reading.

I miss having a boyfriend that would comfort me in times when I am tense over stuffs. Or maybe talk to me and hear my secrets even if my secrets would be about him. Hear me when I need a listening ear. Perhaps, the best he could do is to eat fillet o fish with me whenever I want to. Haha. But on top of all that, I miss having a companion to be my everything. Like seriously, everything; my bestfriend to hear me, my brother to argue over silly things, my BFF to have my joys with, my sister to offer shoulders when I cry, my mother to understand me inside out, my junkie to spend my years with without getting bored and everything (I could go on all day listing my everything. LOL!). =(

'Sometimes, its good to think about dreams that you dreamed of. Esp dreams that when youre on top of the rainbow. I'm doing that now. LOL.'
-SuperNyonya.♥

yeayyyy, met qila at last!

2010-01-05T00:02:00.001+08:00

good nyonya.

hello humans. i am back to school. and yknw whut. i missed a lot of mates there siaaa. so briefly, id tell the updates on school. the system of classroom has changed to home room now. can you imagine yourself walking from one room to another for every different lesson. binget siao gegerl. haha. but seriously, i dont know about the rest, but i would be skinny doing that till Os siak. haha. other than the home room, theyre constructing an indoor sports hall. so i bet thatd be cool. thatd be even cooler to know that the constructing of the hall will be done after you graduate later. watafuck, and yes i am sarcastic the sentence before this. lol. okay, so i am not a sport person to get all pissed on this. so yea, back to the changes. OH YA, that reminds me of the school bell. lol! i wonder where do they get that tune from uh. i bet its somewhere from hello kitty theme song or some stuff my principal find it as a cutesy stuff. lol. it may be okay to girls that are girlish but not to those girls that are not that girlish, and cross to guys la (unless they are gay like jianzhong or someth! lol, kidding if jianzhong is a crazy net surfer and happen to passby my blog! if not, then i am not kidding.) HAHAHAHAHAH. kay, so theres quite some changes. but no matter whut, the best period of th day or maybe everyday is recess and also school dismissal. YEAY.

so thats all for school. after school, slacked, then went down to meet shervans and zeynab. and also zair to alter his pants. headed home with zair. whilst zair was busy shitting, i surfed the net. :) andddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd, actually ive nothing to say. lol.

english teacher ku miss tan sor tin. :( bole menanges siul. lol.
-SuperNyonya

Cause I was born, to tell you I love you.

2010-01-02T04:04:00.000+08:00

I am. CONFUSED.

I couldnt get to bed and my eyebag is getting worst. I kept on thinking of whats becoming of me. In fact, I dont know what I really want. FML.
I am missing Nazli, Haliq, Nazura, Suhaila, Lyani, Zhixin, Zakiy, Zair, Zubaidah, Nashke, and all other humans Ive meet. I am just so lazy now. Byebye.

Gnight,
SuperNyonya. ♥

I know I am late to post but happy new year. :)

2010-01-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

Me and Babiesssss. ♥

Nashke and I. ♥

SZbia and Nashke. ♥

SZbia and I. ♥

In the train home. LOL.

I had a blast on my new year tho changing plans at the very last minute sucks like fuggin shit. So thw whole eve, I went to see the lovely people jam at Beat Merchant studio then headed to OCH after they're done with jam. But on thing about OCH that I dont really like was to climb those fuggin stairs that made me out of breath by the time we reach 3rd or 4th floor. Macam mau tumbok tumbok tu building aje. Why isnt there any lift siak. Haha. Okay back to the 'What-did-I-do-on-eve'. At around 7.15 I guess, cause I didnt take note of the time like almost the whole day, the rest but tisha, zen, and don headed to Tampines to go on our seperate ways and so, Fahmi changed his plans w Nisa, therefore, Nisa went to Naz the bacen's new year countdown w his mates, while I met my babies at DhobyG. Had more like my own dinner with my bbies, Nashke and Zubaidah cause they didnt eat la. I feel bad tho. (I had the last set of rice!) So then, like the corrupted plan, we went on our separate ways. I met awesome sibs at the flyer. Stepped on the dancefloor and I had fun. *Winkwink! Haha. WAIT! All, except those fuggin banglas that try to touch me and stared at me like i am a television screen, cause they didnt even blink their eyes siak. Kanina.

OH AKU JUMPE HALIQ LA SIA. Happy siak aku. -_- He turned out to look quite good. Urhhh, should I say like pretty astro boy? Huahua. And oh my god, to his triplets sia. So fun nye ade triplets. Anyways, I think I talked a lot yesterday. ;( Isnt that good? I would be shy like a kitty cat all the time. No, I was faking that one. But I talked ultra much siak yesterday. And oh my, Haliq's triplet brother said I am friendly. But all I did was to ask his girlfriends name. -_-

(Ni part aku suke) I went back home with Nashke. So we took the train that bounces back, just to get seats. And we managed to grab the seats that comes in two only and not the long row seats. As we were seating, we put the song 'Sail away - Enya' in repeating mode on the music player. Only then we realize we were put to sleep with that song as inspiration for us to sleep. Hahaha. Then Nashke and I woke up, and we kept on laughing on lame stuffs. I dont know whats up with me but I laughed hard that I went knocking on the train walls. HAHAHA. I am too tired that the lamest thing seems to be funny enough that I could laugh that hard. I know its pretty lame.

'Sail away - Enya' (Siak kan lagu. Mane tak ngantok!)

Let me share you the lamest joke I cracked and laughed fucking hard on it.
ME: Ey, asal orang mati mati nak gi tgk firework uh?
NASHKE: Aku pun tak tau. Its plain boring now.
ME: Die cume macam sparkles aje kau tgk.
NASHKE: Tu sebab. -_-
ME: Puas hati kau maen Spider Solitaire sampai menang then tgk fireworks kat situ sia.
NASHKE: *HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA merepek sia kau. *HHAHAHAHA.
ME: Imagine aku ckp ngan mama aku nak gi tgk fireworks, beh mama tanye kat mane, aku jawab kat game.
Then we both burst out laughing like shit sia. Or should I say myself more. Cause its lame and it tickles me like shit, idk why.

gamba maut. HAHA.

watermelon boobs.

2009-12-30T05:37:00.000+08:00

Hello babes and hunks. Especially to my dearest, Qilala Ketot aka Girl nak join SSS. Kay, lame. Ini entry is to show how much I misses school and also that girl that sits infront of me, every weekdays, every school hours. Haha. I miss those time she munches on food. (She has food like 24/7. Itd be in three diff places; 1. Her bag 2. Her mouth 3. Her tummy.) Somehow, her cooking is awesome siaaaa. Okay, next year, Qila masak, Syera test. Test sampai habes, kay? Jgn kasi Afiq makan lagi. Muahahaha! *Smirk. Haha. Okay, so counting down till school reopen or should I say to meeting Qilala bacen, we are left with 5 more days! And greatly, I havent got my books, my pencil case, my new uniforms since my uniforms are colourful now. Whoa, what else. Omg, socks.

So, thats the picture I just took minutes ago for the sake of posting it on blog now. Haha. And sadly, that bacen didnt get my joke just now. Haha. Ass la you. Da da. Saye nak SS sebelum Syera go offline. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.
-SuperNyonya.

That was the first hug on 12.45am. ;) igt okehh.

2009-12-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, syg! Sorry for the previous entry. And this is a make up for that. I hope you loved the last minute cake me and Zubaidah baked. It tastes like brownie, so be happy since I am not a cook and yet I tried. :) Haha. Okay, so I wish you all the best for the coming year, especially in Os. Hey, we are taking Os together. Yeay. Oh, and I also hope that this cousin-ship grows tighter everyday alright.

syg kau la pantat. dont stress out too much btw.
-SuperNyonya.

btw, happy 16th birthday darling.

2009-12-29T03:30:00.000+08:00

hey people. it has been long since i feel like breaking down now. i just realize that i have been this girl that has been wanting things that she know she cant grab. why sial? i suddenly reminisced the time when people called me slut and how much of a jinx i am. and i guess that has hit me real hard on how true it was.

now i just couldnt stop thnking of how bad i am. i hate mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
-supernyonya

UGH!

2009-12-28T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ignore my face. (Thats how long my fringe is now.)

So everyone, I am still stucked whether to cut my fringe or not. Tho Ive asked some of them and they say I should cut, mama and adib still think that I should not. So I could tie everything to the back. Furthermore, I am starting to have pimples. Now, thats gross to tell. But most of everyone has it at this age, right? HAHA. I am undergoing puberty, humans. LOL! Okay, so drop the joke, I want to know if I should have a cut for my fringe or not. What if the salon cut it the way I don't want it to be. Or if she cuts it shorter than I expect since I am a school kid. =/ I need your views.

you can look at the sentosa's pictures over at QueenTisha's blog that I have linked since I am lazy to load the whooole lot now. :)
-SuperNyonya.

aku malas nak pakai caps lock.

2009-12-27T02:22:00.000+08:00

hey humans. in this entry, i would like to apologize for my bad grammar on my previous entry cause i was so shagged that i don't give a shit. and yes, adam called me the grammar nerd. screw you, alright. haha. anyways, recapping, i went bowling with my cousins and that is every single cousin except for the lam and co kids and danblack. whoa, wasted. everyone was there seh. so anyways nashke scored 96, highest. and i scored 80. okayokay, sheesh. i am bad at bowling. -_- we went to teh tarek after that and slacked till 1 in the morning. ke siao la family aku ni. taktau tido betul! haha. oh, i met zubaidah like at last siul!

i will load the snaps at sentosa soon. x]

i dont sniff gums i chew gums.
-supernyonya.

i am eating currypuffs now.

2009-12-25T01:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO, and merry xmas. I went out today, like finally. Out like seriously out. Urh, I went out with Nazli, Fahmi, Tisha, Zen, and Don. They were awesome, alright. Anyways, we went to Sentosa. Tho I didnt get myself inside the water, I did enjoy myself, w the sand, burying Naz, the guitar, the fillet o fish tho i ate like only half of it and threw away the rest including fries. Somehow I wasnt in the mood for food. Sorta. Anyways, we had fun in sentosa. Urh, esp the snapping pictures session. Most of it was taken by Mimi and Tishas mobile. Im lazy to take out my camera anyways. So then, we headed to OCH. I thought we were going to really ransack it, but we ended up going out the OCH after 5mins walking around it. Haha. I wasnt really satisfied tho cause I didnt get to see any. So anyways, I am lazy to type now.

PENAT LA SIALZ.
-SuperNyonya

taik&lalat. HAHA.

2009-12-24T04:35:00.000+08:00

So, I dont know if Ive post any entry with this snap or not, but whatever it is, I wanna talk about happiness. I think I am on the track of finding mine and i hope this happiness is gonna last. This happiness I got from my friends. And no, not from my mum or family yet. Did I tell you how much she vents everything on me. And I hate that so much, okay. The only one I could seek from now is my friends. Tho friends are best known to go away after a few while, I hope these friends aren't like those I always see. So yea, this is a short entry.

I miss Pit People somehow. I received a text from Jeez. Made me feel real bad. But I couldn't just stay there, wasting my time getting ignored or bullied, right. Tho they are joking. To me, it is getting overboard now. I couldn't stand but to put myself away for some time. I wanna stand alone for this while and mix around with other. I, will never forget all memories spent with my lovely pit people.

'bileadetaik,mestiadelalat.'

-SuperNyonya.

insomnia

2009-12-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

Ini khas untuk MoK / Afiqqqq. Nah amek kau ngan eyebag ni.

So anyways, talking about eyebags, I am sleeping real late night nowadays. Or should I say early in the morning. Haha. Okay, so I have not been sleeping throughout the night. Instead I sleep from as early as 7 morning until 5 in the afternoon, most to most. Laugh all you want, or whatevs okay. I tried sleeping early almost all the days, but ended up at bed in the morning still. So don't blame me. :)

BLAME INSOMNIA.

-SuperNyonya.

Dont leave me.

2009-12-23T18:27:00.002+08:00

mama

2009-12-23T16:40:00.000+08:00

You know, sometimes I just don't understand you, mum. Is it me? What is so wrong for your girl to go out during her holidays? I mean, I am a youth, who just wants to have all those fun. I don't get why at times you are behaving like I am just a rotten piece of shit. You make me feel that way, like all the time. I tried to learn you, understand what you really want of me. But fuck it, okay. I don't get you until now. Am I sucha bitch to you or what? WHY LA SIAL. I give up getting close to you, getting to know you, trying to be your friend rather than your daughter or any way to be with you okay. I seriously do.

fuckyou.
-SuperNyonya

taik.

2009-12-23T05:19:00.000+08:00

so currently, i am chatting w my qilala bacen uh. haha. so we were reminiscing about school days. and the first thing that strike my head was that boy that masturbate in class. okay, i am not being disgusting but being disgusted and terrified and paranoid and whatevs. thats so not me now. haha. so anyways, qila just reminded me on omg, theres no more class t designers other than me, faqeh, uh, and i cant recall my classmates now. haha. since yunlong, hafiz, and zair is down now. omg. i dont wanna struggle sia. but anyways, i am sn. so thats it, dood. i rule. aink.
okay, i am so crapping now.
bye humans, and i am so treating this like tumblr today.
watafuck.

Zubaidah.

2009-12-23T04:23:00.000+08:00

I miss that Busok up there, okay. She promised me that after her papers, we will be going out. Okay, fine. I was just exaggerating about the promise part. So that the impact is stronger. Haha. Okay, whatevs. But I missed her THIS much that I am angry at her now. Ainkk. Meet up soon kay bacen.

ps/ we just live like two blocks away, and it is this hard to meet her sia. hahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahhaahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahahhaha

No, its not funny okay. Bye.

-SuperNyonya.

untuk Qila.

2009-12-23T03:20:00.000+08:00

haha, here you go kering. oh, igt my say just now kay. love you la bacen. cant wait for school to start, then i would be seeing qila stuffing foods and more foods in her mouth. hahahahahahhahahaa.

ok bye.